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Poison Vine

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When I was younger, I discovered a fascination for learning about what drives the creative mind. I was so inspired by people with artistic souls, so overwhelmed by the innovative works they would create, that I longed to shadow them, merge with them, climb inside their heads and understand their passion and process from within. After some time of feeling such a fevered desire to express creatively and connect with others in the same vein, my like-minded friends and I started a zine together that we typed up surreptitiously on library computers, cutting and pasting the words like a jigsaw puzzle: elaborately scripted titles next to hand-drawn artwork; ponderous think-pieces beside angsty poetry and rambling verse.

We left copies everywhere: stuffed in coffee shop sofa cushions, tacked to bulletin boards around town, pooling in haphazardous piles on the floor of every ‘alternative’ store we knew. Over time, we attracted a small following, and when the Internet became more available, a Geocities page followed. And when submissions trickled in from artists and authors countrywide, I felt I had finally found my collective; yet still, I was unsatisfied. Because reading these amazing words, seeing the drawings, even enigmatically receiving demo tapes, I felt … unworthy, like an impostor. As though I had no hope of measuring up. It was the same anxious feeling that found me able to perform in musicals, where a character’s suit of armor I could don, but terribly shy to strip away the façade and just sing for others, to be the artist and musician I wanted to be all along.

Though it’s been years now, these thoughts still overtake me sometimes with their poisonous vines. And not necessarily in times of strife; this past week or more I’ve been radiantly happy, feeling genuinely wonderful about life. Yet I look at a picture I’ve taken a dozen times, and I can’t tell if I like it, if it’s acceptable, if it’s something worthy of your time or mine. But it’s all just over-thinking, and I’m trying my best to not let doubts overwhelm. Some might say: “Hey, relax – these are just pictures, showing off pixel clothing and virtual sights.” But they have also become a way to express and connect, a means for being artistic, and for finding creative release. I’ve met some of the dearest, most beloved people to me in Second Life through Flickr, whose pictures ignited appreciation, and whose kindred spirits inspired so much more. So they begin as simple pictures, but with luck, like so many springtime buds and blossoms, something takes root and they begin to bloom. ♡

Poison Vine
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Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Avi-Glam Eyes – Ardent Eyes (Sky v1) *
Rezology Hair – Windswept *

Style & Pose

Baubles! by Phe Jewelry – Peacock Necklace (Gold) New Release @ On9, through June 28th *
Lavian & Co Dress – I Can Feel Your Body Dress (Bag 1) New Release @ On9, through June 28th *
ChicChica Shoes – Perola (Nude) New Release @ On9, through June 28th *
Amitie Pose – Ella 05 New Release @ On9, through June 28th *

Destination & Inspiration

✈ Sights: Crossing Currents
🎧 Sounds: Left – Poison Vine

By the Seashore

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Happiest of weekend greetings, dear friends! This is quickie (rawr) to get the word out for the dear and lovely Deesselle, who designs skins, eyes and more for her brand DS’ELLES. The skin I’m wearing in my look today is available as part of the Fifty5 Thursdays weekly sale event, which is brand new to me; I’d honestly never heard of it until Deesselle sent me the notecard! A huge number of stores put out special items for sale from L$55 to L$100, and the offering from DS’ELLES is a special edition Mathilde skin in the Colorado skintone, which is a perfect golden-tan that makes you look like you’ve just vacationed for a week in the French Riviera. It may be found at the mainstore for just L$99, but only through Sunday!

By the Seashore
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Body / Maitreya | Mesh Body – Lara v3.4
* Skin / DS’ELLES | Mathilde – Special Edition (Colorado) | L$99 in-store through August 16th
Hair / Elua | Oceana – Blonde HUD
* Eyes / DS’ELLES | Apocalypse Eyes – Bleu
Lashes / Mon Cheri | Falsies Mesh Eyelashes – Upper
Eyeliner / Glam Affair | Couture Eyeliner No. 02


* Jewelry / Baubles! by Phe | Night Lace Earrings | WearHouse Event, through August 28th
* Outfit / Angel’s Designs | Saint Tropez Bra, Panty & Over Dress – Night (Maitreya Lara Fitted) | Mesh Body Addicts Fair, through August 21st
* Shoes / KC Couture | Andria Heels (for Maitreya, Belleza, TMP and Slink High feet)

Poses & Destination

Prop / Kalopsia | Dolce Vita Scooter (with built-in pose)
Location / Endless Summer

I’m also wearing a fabulous bikini and dress set from Angel’s Designs for the Mesh Body Addicts Fair, and I was truly impressed when I slipped it on and it fit perfectly. Fitmesh for the Maitreya Lara body is still experimental, so designers always recommend trying demos to ensure that their items fit as intended, and I’ve found a few times where the standard size version of a fitted mesh item was still a better option for me. But a hearty “well done” to Angel’s Designs for their work, as the bikini fits beautifully and the lovely lace dress just skims over top so nicely. Perfect for a stroll on the beach!

Speaking of summery pursuits, I’m off to enjoy my sunny Saturday. Sending lots of love and wishes for a marvelous weekend to to all! ♥