TETRA

All Mixed Up

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“She’s always out making pictures
She’s always out making scenes
She’s always out the window
When it comes to making dreams …”

Look

Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Entwined Hair – Lily New Release @ Shiny Shabby, through October 15th *

Style & Pose

Just Because Dress – Silvia Dress New Release @ Uber, through October 22nd *
TETRA Shoes – Double Wrap Booties with Socks New Release *
Label Motion Pose – Brenda Pose 1

Destination & Inspiration

🎧 Sounds: Red House Painters – All Mixed Up

Embers of the Summer

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Pale September, I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me, like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold, and only hollow rhythms resounded from within

But then he rose, brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep

And all my armor falling down
In a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm
As I’m singing him to sleep …”

Look

Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head – Melissa
Genesis Lab Skin – Angie (Cream)
Mandala Ears – Steking Ears Season 5
Avi-Glam Eyes – Hypnotic Eyes (Goldenrod) *
Elikatira Hair – Poppy (Redheads HUD) New Release @ Hairology, through September 30th *

Style & Pose

PurpleMoon Jewelry – Gitana Necklace (Size 1 Full)
Thalia Heckroth Dress – Kaia Silk Mini Dress (in Moss for Maitreya Lara) New Release *
TETRA Shoes – Double Wrap Booties (for Maitreya, Freya, Isis, Venus, Slink) New Release *
Double Take Pose – Pardon My French (slightly edited)

Destination & Inspiration

✈ Sights: Cheeky Tiramisu
🎧 Sounds: Fiona Apple – Pale September

Delicate Dream

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“Take a moment to unwind yourself, my sweet
Feel the softness of my breath creeping into your dreams
Well you came, and you saw what I saw, and you fell
I fell, and you know that we are tasting heaven
But it’s hard, and it’s good
And I love the fire you stir in me
My delicate dream …”

Look

Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Izzie’s Freckles – Body Freckles II (Maitreya, Belleza, Slink Appliers & System Layers)
Mandala Ears – Steking Ears Season 5
Avi-Glam Eyes – Specular Eyes (Sky)
Opale Hair – Grace (Dark Blondes HUD) New Release @ LIMIT8 *

Style & Pose

TETRA Lingerie – Fishnet Stretch-Silk Bra & Thong New Release @ Uber, through September 22nd *
Thalia Heckroth Shoes – Alex Leather Mules (in Pink for Maitreya Mid feet) *
Lyrium Pose – Faded Dreams *
Focus Poses Prop – Daybed New Release @ Cosmopolitan, through September 10th

Inspiration

🎧 Sounds: Shana Halligan – Delicate Dream

Home

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There have been a number of lovely memories inspired within me this last week, and perhaps my favorite was recalling the time I spent in Ireland while I was at University, a ten day tour with my small chamber choir as we toured several cities, stopping to sing at churches, pubs, and even a castle or two. I felt so bestirred by emotion during that trip, yet unwilling to take for granted a single moment. In my head like a gentle mantra, I kept remembering a concept attributed to Confucius in my philosophy courses: “No matter where you go, there you are.” To be true, no matter where we visited in Ireland, I was so present in that place and time, I could almost feel the passageways of my mind taking careful, ardent notes of my surroundings and experiences, in order to paint the most meaningful memories.

And one particularly lush recollection I have of Ireland is its bodies of water, how unique they felt to me. The North Atlantic Ocean lapping the shores of Galway was the same one I’d swam in whilst visiting New Jersey as a girl, but it felt so profoundly different: stoic and serene, worldly and wise, as though it was regarding this young woman with its thoughtful blue-gray eyes, asking her to stay awhile, maybe have a pint, and please: feel right at home.

The other day, I wrote that: “the most simple and poetic way I know how to describe it is that when you find your place here, Second Life feels like coming home.” I would expand upon that to say that it’s so much more than the platform that inspires this feeling, but truly the people and experiences we share within. I feel as though I’m emerging at last with grateful clarity from the occasional storms that have paused for a while on my prairie these past few weeks, and I have a number of wonderful SL residents to thank for that. Because without you, kind souls, this virtual world is like a harbor without a lighthouse. Or to borrow a beautiful sentiment from my favorite poet, Pablo Neruda: “You occupied the house that darkly awaited you, and then you lit the lamps …”


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“Relieved … I’m so relieved
The tables are turning
Don’t sacrifice this feeling
Home, is this my home?
Been starting over
Bathe in the water …”

Look

Slink Body – Hourglass v1.5.1
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Mandala Ears – Steking Ears Season 5
Avi-Glam Eyes – Elysian Eyes (Sunrise) *
Elua Hair – Oceana (Blonde HUD)

Style & Pose

TETRA Lingerie – Sporty Bra & Panties (fatpack for Maitreya Lara, Slink Hourglass & Slink Physique) New Release @ Kustom9, through August 10th *
!Bang Poses – Tease 3

Destination & Inspiration

✈ Sights: Black Basalt Beach
🎧 Sounds: Engineers – Home

Waiting Where the Light Goes

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If in my last post I was fielding gentle riots inside my thoughts, this one finds me with absolute ants in my pants. Not presently, that is … the turbulence in my mind has soothed itself to a sort of truce between tranquility and unrest. But this last day or two, oh my stars. There’s a wonderful word that originated in the Italian neighborhoods in New York City and blossomed outward into my part of the state in the 1980s, which my mom picked up on and used on my brother and I with frequency. “You’re giving me agita,” she’d say when we were being particularly troublemaking or otherwise childlike. Agita comes from the Italian word acido, meaning heartburn, but New Yorkers used it to mean anxiety, agitation, or stress. And that’s what I had been feeling: a whole heapin’ helping of agita. Suffice it to say, the center could not hold for long. I either had to deal with it, or be driven crazy.

Something I’ve practiced for many years, though not as consistently as I’d like, is meditation. Having had little luck with mantras, my most blissful experience with it is lying in darkness, white noise or ambient music filling my mind, just focusing on my breathing. Inhale for 7 counts, exhale for 5 … always an unbalanced rhythm to keep my mind from wandering too far. So I spent some time meditating in the early morning hours before getting up to work on this picture, and I noticed when I was trying to make my mind settle, that everything causing me agitation kept coming back to my perceived lack of time. And this is a tricky one, because time is finite; we can’t get more of it no matter how hard we try. But we can manage how we spend it, and that’s what my thoughts were gently trying to express as they urged, eased, and compelled me into quietude.


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“take the darkest hour, break it open
water to repair what we have broken
there’s something that you won’t show
waiting where the light goes
maybe anywhere the wind blows,
it’s all worth waiting for …”

Look

Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Damien Fate Eyelashes – FATELashes v2.0
Avi-Glam Eyes – Elysian Eyes (SummerNight) New Release @ Cosmopolitan, through July 16th *
Exile Hair – Wisteria (Fifty Linden Friday HUD)

Style & Pose

Maxi Gossamer Jewelry – Boho Bliss Tassel-Tastic Necklace (Short 1)
TETRA Dress – Sahara Dress (Maitreya HUD) New Release @ Uber, through July 23rd *
Imeka Pose – Loli Pose 7

Destination & Inspiration

✈ Sights: The Trace
🎧 Sounds: Toad the Wet Sprocket – Windmills

Toward the end of meditation, I started to feel what I can only describe as a sensuous buzz, sort of ricocheting outward from my chest in all directions at once. And even though the lights were out and a sleep mask covered my eyes, I began to feel a kind of radiance and warmth, like sitting outside by the coals of a bonfire: close enough that you can still feel the heat, and be hypnotized by the crimson and gold as it gives off its lingering glow. I felt broken open, like the charred log anchoring the blaze, its skin blistered and carbonized, cleaving open its insides at last. I didn’t feel renewed, more like succumbed– and it’s a feeling I actually cherish more. Because I think I’m finally coming to peace with the understanding that I can’t see, experience, or please everything and everyone all the time. The gamer inside me who chases the Completionist goal, who wants to turn in every quest and pick up every stone unturned, will needfully take an overdue rest. I won’t ever truly stop trying to Do All The Things; it goes against my nature. But I have to be more kind to myself when time isn’t on my side. The things that matter most, they’re like embers: they linger patiently, persistently, just waiting to be stirred once more. And those most important things, they’re all worth waiting for. ♡